My special china graced the table. Candles lit. Food
prepared. I knew they would arrive soon. I could feel their darkness. Though I
didn’t like these beguiling enemies, I had invited them for a visit.
A harsh knock at the door warned me of their presence, and I
welcomed them in.
As soon as they sat down Discouragement
began the conversation.
“You’ve been doing this for years,” she hissed. “You’ve
touched a few lives, but where’s the growth to prove your worth, your talent .
. . your calling? Your friend’s blog has received a million views; you’ve not
gleaned half that.”
With each comparing sentence I slumped farther into my
chair.
I could barely breathe.
The other guest, Fear,
chimed in, “You are nobody,” he softly echoed. His melancholy voice streamed
from pale lips, “Who would want to read your words? Who are you to write Bible
studies and books? What audacity!”
His words invited a third guest named Self-Pity. She let herself in and silently pulled up her chair to
the table. She did not need to speak.
I placed food on my guests’ plates as I agreed with their
slander.
“I know,” I admitted. “I am not good enough.”
After a few hours, satisfied and victorious, Discouragement and Fear sauntered to the door, but Self-Pity
hung around. Though silent, her presence further darkened my heart. I didn’t
want her there, but I didn’t know how to make her leave.
I heard myself pray, “Help me, Lord.”
Just as quickly as my enemies exited, a gentle, warm, new
voice entered the room and whispered into my soul. I couldn’t see His presence,
but I knew He was there.
“I am faithful,” He whispered.
His was a voice of hope, encouragement, and promise. His
always brought life and light.
“I’ve given you an assignment, my child. Leave the numbers
and success to me. Don’t you know my economy is different? I’ve a plan for you.
Trust me. Do what I lead you to do.”
The residual darkness from Discouragement, Fear, and Self-Pity
began to dissolve as I chose to believe the Holy Spirit. I slowly lifted my
hands to the Voice of Promise. I rebuked the voices I’d previously entertained
and told them they were no longer welcome.
There would be no special dinner for them tomorrow night. My
table would be set only for Jesus. I would prepare His dinner one faithful bog
post, one article, or one chapter at a time.
Do you entertain Discouragement,
Fear, or Self-Pity as I do? As the New Year approaches, these three
resolutions can dispel their power and strengthen our resolve to follow the
call to write:
·
Don’t entertain negative comparisons. Rebuke
those thoughts. Remember God’s economy is different than ours.
·
Spend daily time with Jesus, listening to His
direction.
·
Spend time worshiping the One for whom you
write.
What are other ways you can disarm Discouragement, Fear, and Self-Pity?
So do not fear, for I am with you; do
not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will
uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)
Bio:
Andy Lee is an author, blogger, teacher and women’s ministry
speaker.
She also serves as a mentor for Word Weavers International helping
launch and support new chapters all around the country. Her greatest
passion is
Jesus and teaching people how to dig into the Bible but her
second passion is
encouraging new writers to follow their call. She
hales from Oklahoma,
but she love North Carolina
and hopes to
live here for a long time.
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